Stella's Obsessions: What Keeps My Ex Coming Back

Stella's Obsessions: What Keeps My Ex Coming Back

Royal Princess Oud is not for your typical “Princess”.

Royal Princess Oud is not for your typical “Princess”.

Text: Stella Pak

In an ongoing series, V's Contributing Beauty Editor Stella Pak indulges us with her current obsessions.

Scent and memory go hand in hand. It takes you back into a place in your mind that strangely locks you into the same emotive state you remember. I get flashbacks of a time when I smell certain foods, morning dew in a field, a library book, or even a city. In some cases, I remember past lovers and some remember me.

I walked into a Creed Boutique in the Upper East Side on a weekend afternoon searching for a new fragrance to mark a new milestone in life, wanting something unique. There’s something nice about owning a fragrance no one can identify at a Sephora or the waft of an “IT” perfume that marks a place in time for you and your peers. You can’t pay a price for a scent that will be attached to someone else’s recollection of you, hoping those memories bring a sense of joy and happiness.

When I first came across Royal Princess Oud, I was reluctant. The bottle is pink. And it says Princess. It was hard to identify with at first sight, but there’s a fresh sweetness anchored by the heavy gravity of the sensual darkness of Oud. I tried a sample for a week and my lover at the time lingered around and gazed a little closer. He liked it so much that he would ask if he could wear it himself. I felt like a woman during those moments in the whirlwind of monotony a relationship can carry. So I caved and bought myself a travel size. The 30ML bottle had just enough for me to use comfortably to feel that it would carry me into another phase without commitment to scent identity.

The relationship between me and loverboy eventually fell apart for reasons other than the lack of magical powers a scent can have to drive your man into a zombie for you. We remain friends as I do with most exes. I can only feel grateful for the time we spent together and the memories we’ve shared. He’s met someone new and maybe I have to. When he came to visit me at my apartment recently, he scanned the room and found the full size bottle. His eyes lit up as he walked over to smell it. He never asks for much, but he asked if he could keep it. And for some reason, I said, “Sure. It’s for you.”

Credits: PHOTOGRAPHY BY STELLA PAK

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